Surprises comes in one after the other

Recently there were too many surprises, not too sure if it is a good idea. I started planning my path in life for the next few years quite sometime back. Since I started my part time degree in mechanical engineering I thought of getting a job related to my area of studies so that I can apply what I have learn in class during my work. Sad to say people have not been giving me chance all the while.

It was only recently then they realise that they need to start training people for the respective role. They approach me offering me only one option and it's like there is no other choice for you to choose. They stress me to take up the offer when I told them that we talk about the issue after I complete my 1st year in my degree.

My target is to start now as time is running out and I only have 4 year to learn whatever I can after which I must be independent to make some decision. Another 6 year to get into management level, final target position is to be a director if I can make it.

The chance is here now but then there are alot of obstacles which I will need to overcome, if i were to accept the offer. Chances don't come everytime and some people tell me to look at it in the positive way as it might be a good chance for me to learn something. Some friends have told me not to be a coward by avoiding the offer when there are some obstacles & office politics that I need to face.

This is not a simple case where alot of outsiders will think just accept 1st if you don't like then resign after that. The problem now is once you have step in there is no return for me. I have to consider it carefully before making any decision.

Next surprise is my results, I have never expect that I will pass my maths exam last semester but today I very please because I have pass both modules even when I got just a pass only because during last semester I have been spending time looking through machinery auctions and sourcing for equipment all around the world. It was after 2 year of army that I have not touch my books. Last but not least I cannot be so ungrateful as 1 of my classmates have also help me during the study period for the final exam. She has been monitoring my progress of studies & we have help each other closely together with a group of classmates. If not for their support I don't think I will be able to pass this exam. Thanks to those who have help me especially her.

CNY Shopping

Yesterday was a long day, went around the island to do some stuff. It was only in the late afternoon that I went Queensway Shopping Centre to get my new shoes. Finally got it at $85 bucks. As for the Chinese New Year Shopping I bought almost all my stuff except a pair of jeans & maybe a new belt. Actually wanted to get them but I don't have enough time.

There is also a problem which affect my mood these few days. It seems to be a good job offer but then i'm not a 3 years old kid. There is bound to be terms & condition attach, so I shall wait till I get more details about the offer before the next time I update my blog.

What a Big Fool & stubborn guy will not return to his past.

I made a big mistake right from the start. I should not have express myself in the 1st place and now finally I got to know the real you.

You told me that you are single that's why I approach and express my feelings to you. During that point of time you never tell me that you have broken off with your ex-boyfriend not long ago. I even ask if I can to woo you then your answer to me was YES go ahead.

Suddenly you told me about your ex-boyfriend coming back from Australia for holiday and all these while he is still be on your mind. I understand that I came in at the wrong time and you need time to forget about your past. My hopes are suddenly shuttle, you told me that you will try to forget him because he is the one who has cheated on you in the 1st place.

Few days later you came to me telling me that all these while the both of you have been keeping in touch closely and you feel like giving him a last chance. I was so depress during that point of time. Our classmates have witness how I treated you and this is what I get in return. Luckly I have a group of best friends who are there to support me. Without them I don't really know what I will become. My end of 2007 is just like a nightmare.

I still can accept how you have treated me until before the new term starts. The 1st day of class on a sunday morning 9am I was abit late already. I saw you and I sit infront of you but I did not say hi to you because the class has already started and I don't want to disturb you. During tea break time I turn around to talk to you and return you the DVD which I have borrow from you. We have not been talking to each other for like few weeks after we last talk to each other. Surprisingly you got nothing to talk to me.

You promise me that you will let me know whatever the outcome of you and your ex-boyfriend and also if we are not together as a couple we can still be best friends. I also promise you that I will keep my options open for others.

I have kept my promise to you and you broke all that you have promise me. I still can accept all these but what I can't accept is when our close classmates ask you why are you avoiding me. Your reply to them is I want to avoid you and now you push all the blame to me. You tell people that I didn't take the initiative to talk to you in class and MSN you? I really don't know how to comment about you.

You hurt a guy so deep down in his heart and expect him to take the initiative to talk to you?
I think only a guy who still has the feelings for you will do that. I don't mind losing a friend like you if you want to be so childish.
I am a stubborn guy when I say all that we have been through is the past I will be the past. Don't ever come and beg me because I will never give in.


The things I have done for you

I pick you up from work to go for revision with our classmates for exam then sent you home in tampines when I am staying in upper thomson area.

Worried that you do not have time to take dinner before going to class after work, I even make it an effort to pick you up along the way so that you can have dinner before class and not having to go back home after class to cook instant noodle.

When we went gathering with our classmates I even peel the shell of the prawns for you when I don't even do that for myself. My buddy who I know since poly days is just sitting beside me and the prawns just went to you and not him. You see how much I care for you? Can you go tell people out there what you did to the prawns? You pass them to another guy infront of me.

A stubborn guy will not return to his past.

Now that I look back all these I think I am a big fool. These are all the past I just want them to be history, what I care is my present and what I look forward is a better future with someone who appreciates what she has. Somethings when it's gone it will be gone forever. When the hopes and chances are here you do not cherish it so don't blame people for not giving you a chance.

My new corner

It has been quite sometime since I last blog here. Well was busy with some new project at work and not forgetting Facebook also which I was so addicted to.

Here a new corner in my room hopefully it will bring me luck & wealth.

Today is the 2nd day of the setup and the roses are all open up. Hopefully they will last for at least 1 week. After which I think I will change it to artificial roses.

I still need to go IKEA to look for a table because this table is loan out from my mum's kitchen.

Will update this corner after this weekend.

A new start for 2008

The past few weeks have been meeting up with my best friends. Thanks to all those who have help and advise me when I was very sad few weeks ago.
Now that I have give up the past and look forward to the future. I will work towards achieving my goals & dreams for 2008.
Exam results coming out soon, hopefully I will clear the modules smoothly & not get stuck somewhere.
The new semester starting very soon going to be busy again. Looking forward to the short break during Chinese New Year to catch up with my friends & studies as there will be a quiz coming up shortly after the break. Will try to update this blog when I have the time.

Pls leave me alone

I really don't understand. Why do you still have to SMS every now & then? Why can't you leave me alone?
From your SMS I can see that U can't forget about me. The fact is that I never have any feelings for you. I only treat you like a colleague that all.
Well I have also make it very clear to you that I will be going away. So please wake up your idea. If you just SMS during the festival seasons for greetings then I'm ok with that but sometimes you have SMS those stuff which you should not. Please I'm not your bf.
If I have a gf I strongly believe that she will not like it either. Please stop all these & just leave me alone.

The Eve of 2007 Christmas

This is my 1st blog, I started this is because I'm having some uncomfortable feelings deep there. But thanks to all the friends who are there when I need them.

At first I thought what I have been through is very sad & disappointed until I read about another blog of my friend's best friend then i realise tat what I have been through is nothing compare to what this gal has been through.

After knowing the gal's story from my best friend I have decided to be strong and face the facts, no matter what is going to happen this week I must face it with courage. I have already prepared for the worst. No point holding on to a relationship when U know nothing is going to work out.

Hopefully there will be some surprise later today. Merry Christmas to all, may all ur wishes comes true.