You told me that you are single that's why I approach and express my feelings to you. During that point of time you never tell me that you have broken off with your ex-boyfriend not long ago. I even ask if I can to woo you then your answer to me was YES go ahead.
Suddenly you told me about your ex-boyfriend coming back from Australia for holiday and all these while he is still be on your mind. I understand that I came in at the wrong time and you need time to forget about your past. My hopes are suddenly shuttle, you told me that you will try to forget him because he is the one who has cheated on you in the 1st place.
Few days later you came to me telling me that all these while the both of you have been keeping in touch closely and you feel like giving him a last chance. I was so depress during that point of time. Our classmates have witness how I treated you and this is what I get in return. Luckly I have a group of best friends who are there to support me. Without them I don't really know what I will become. My end of 2007 is just like a nightmare.
I still can accept how you have treated me until before the new term starts. The 1st day of class on a sunday morning 9am I was abit late already. I saw you and I sit infront of you but I did not say hi to you because the class has already started and I don't want to disturb you. During tea break time I turn around to talk to you and return you the DVD which I have borrow from you. We have not been talking to each other for like few weeks after we last talk to each other. Surprisingly you got nothing to talk to me.
You promise me that you will let me know whatever the outcome of you and your ex-boyfriend and also if we are not together as a couple we can still be best friends. I also promise you that I will keep my options open for others.
I have kept my promise to you and you broke all that you have promise me. I still can accept all these but what I can't accept is when our close classmates ask you why are you avoiding me. Your reply to them is I want to avoid you and now you push all the blame to me. You tell people that I didn't take the initiative to talk to you in class and MSN you? I really don't know how to comment about you.
You hurt a guy so deep down in his heart and expect him to take the initiative to talk to you?
I think only a guy who still has the feelings for you will do that. I don't mind losing a friend like you if you want to be so childish.
I am a stubborn guy when I say all that we have been through is the past I will be the past. Don't ever come and beg me because I will never give in.
The things I have done for you
I pick you up from work to go for revision with our classmates for exam then sent you home in tampines when I am staying in upper thomson area.
Worried that you do not have time to take dinner before going to class after work, I even make it an effort to pick you up along the way so that you can have dinner before class and not having to go back home after class to cook instant noodle.
When we went gathering with our classmates I even peel the shell of the prawns for you when I don't even do that for myself. My buddy who I know since poly days is just sitting beside me and the prawns just went to you and not him. You see how much I care for you? Can you go tell people out there what you did to the prawns? You pass them to another guy infront of me.
A stubborn guy will not return to his past.
Now that I look back all these I think I am a big fool. These are all the past I just want them to be history, what I care is my present and what I look forward is a better future with someone who appreciates what she has. Somethings when it's gone it will be gone forever. When the hopes and chances are here you do not cherish it so don't blame people for not giving you a chance.
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